In 2008, I was 20 years old full of dreams and hopes for life. I thought that I had perfect life, but I was wrong. My life turned 180 degree and the worse days of my life started. I was broken, I wanted to die, that was the day my hopes and my dreams crushed in front of me.
I was caring so much pain and I couldn’t share with anybody. I become so good in acting, that even my partner didn’t realise how bad things are, my soul was covered in darkness. I got so used to wear my mask that I lost myself in this fake reality without realizing that he also was in pain but the mask I was wearing was giving him hope for a better future for us. I was his reason to wake up in the morning, I was his reason to keep going, I was, and I am still the love of his life.
I still remember his words “You are my rock; you keep me not to drawn. If you give up, you will let me draw…” That was the moment that hit me strong and woke up long forgotten feelings of hope. That was the moment that I decided that the pain shouldn’t be stronger than me. With every day I was feeling lighter and happier. I was able to see clear and to take life in my hands. The scar doesn’t show my weakness, my pain and my darkness, it shows inner power, my strength and my faith for a better life.
Dec 2014 is the year that our life turned in 180 degree one more time, but this time was different. This time was for something good, this time my soul was full of joy and hope. 3th of August 2015 was the day that I was holding the whole life in my hands.